Wednesday, May 25, 2005

The Long Clew

An Essay

A young woman I know wrote a beautiful poem about Someday, describing a longing she has (in fact it is a universal longing) for something good missing from her life. Someday is a word she loves and hates, embodying both anticipation and frustration, glimpses and blindnesses, sweet and bitter. C. S. Lewis wrote about this longing in his autobiography, Surprised by Joy[1]. He called it joy, though he was quick to deny any connection with what most people would describe as joyful. It is not a happiness or pleasure at all. Joy was for him a technical term that would most likely be classified as a grief or a loss. John Eldredge called it desire[2]. Self-help writers have called it dream. For my own purposes, I will refer to it as longing. Any adult worth his salt would read my friend’s poem and respond with a wise old smile and a nod that says, “Ah yes, the someday of youth. You will see that when your someday comes it will not be nearly as wonderful or as terrible as you imagine but rather as plain and ordinary as today. The days come and go, and waiting for someday is really like looking for the pot of gold at the end of a rainbow.” So says wisdom. But does this wisdom answer the question, or does it in its own weakness quickly and subtly modify the question in order to answer one it is more comfortable with? What about the other side of this same coin, the side adults worth their salt cannot explain with disillusionment? My teenage friend assumes—as did I when I was a teenager—that all joys are lost to the future, that all desires point forward. I remember the anticipation of a driver’s license, of heading off to college, of being elected to a popular office, of starting my real career, of meeting “the one”, or of buying my own home. All things missing were in that wonderful and terrible future someday. But now there are many joys that are lost to the past—recurring dreams of playing in that big game, good relationships blown over stupid things said or done, missed opportunities for life or love, friends that drifted away for who knows why? They can no more be let go than my friend’s dreams of someday, and are perhaps even more confounding. The future after all is mysterious, but the past is the past; why does it haunt so? And why would I long to answer a question not being asked? Further, what about things lost neither to the future nor the past, like the one who feels like they’re stuck in the wrong career or caste or with the wrong spouse, or born in the wrong era? These also describe a feeling of something missing or lost or hoped for. They are unreasonable and universal. In fact, we know many of the sad stories that go with people becoming so anxious about their somedays that they recklessly pursue them, short circuiting their lives and the lives of those dear to them in the process. I suggest that all of these longings, whether future, past, present, or anachronous, are really made of the same stuff, and in that stuff are clues to our true nature and destiny. Better to say there are clews: balls of yarn unraveled to help us find our way out of our labyrinth[3].

I would like to consider my friend’s longing in particular and the longings of the rest of us in general to understand the nature of this kind of longing. Is longing some base instinct, something akin to the fight-or-flight response, which somehow helps the organism or race? Based on the usual assessments already noted (longings are at best naïve fantasies and at worst life-wreckers), I suspect many would be surprised to find it so. On the other hand, is longing a curse picked up in the fall of man or perpetrated by an enemy of the human soul, some darkening of a natural appetite, something not to be trusted but avoided at great cost? I would be surprised to find it so. What could possibly be wrong with a teenage girl longing bitterly to meet for the first time her pen pal, another teenage girl with whom on-line she has shared experiences, thoughts, dreams, humor, the silliness that all friends share, and common work? Knowing the one who longs in this case, and knowing what the longing is tied to, I can’t imagine that this comes from “sinful flesh” or from some unworthy or unrighteous motive, nor that its result would be to harm anyone involved. What about longings in general? Men and women long to spend more time with their friends and families and less at their work. Everyone longs to be understood in a meaningful relationship with at least one true friend. Christian parents long to know that their children are following Christ. People long to be reunited with a friend, a mate, or a parent who has died. Amputees don’t fully let go of that missing leg or arm. People long for the day when they are ahead of their debts. And there are the “huddled masses yearning to breathe free.”[4] Jesus himself confessed a powerful longing to share a covenant meal with his closest friends.[5] These longings to take hold of something lost or out of reach are almost universal, and I can’t think of a reason to distrust them either. On the other hand, there are certainly countless examples of longings that seem to trip people up. There is the longing for thrilling conquest that gets under a man’s skin, propelling him into an affair while away on a business trip. There is the corresponding longing for adventure tripping up the same woman. Too many Napoleon’s, Hitler’s, Stalin’s and Caesars have longed to rule the world and have murdered millions on their way. The longing to be rich has led to all kinds of temptations, traps, and foolishness, leading to destruction.[6] The sons of Israel longed to have a king to lead them like the other nations had, which produced many miseries.[7] The Tower of Babel came from a longing to reach the heavens, but ended in confusion.[8] Peter’s longing to save the life of Jesus would have prevented the life of Jesus from saving the rest of mankind.[9] James and John’s longing to straddle Jesus in his kingdom seems nobler but caused great indignation.[10] In modern life, in history, in the Bible, throughout all of the human experience it is easy to come up with examples of longings ending in disaster. But did they have to go that way? Or is there a way to bear up even these longings without giving way to them? Even more intriguing, are these “sinful” longings qualitatively different than the “righteous” longings, or are they at some level made of the same stuff? Different types of matter, when reduced to their smallest units, are basically the same. It turns out that the differences in character of a granite rock and a glass of water have to do not with their fundamental components, but with the way they are arranged. I suspect that longings are the same insomuch as it is not the fundamental longings themselves that ensnare people, but the way they are arranged: the way they are handled or mishandled.

The mishandling of longings is certainly a cause of most of the destruction associated with them. Consider justice. Doesn’t every culture have a similar view of justice (even though they have vastly different ways of meting it)? Don’t the families of murdered victims always want to attend the execution of the perpetrator? Even in lesser crimes like theft or betrayal, isn’t there a longing for closure, to at least know the truth of the matter? Is it bad to want justice? The martyrs in heaven say, “How long until our blood is avenged?” and God’s reply is something like, “A little longer, and here are clean clothes to wear while you wait.”[11] From Job to David to Zechariah, the prophets also cried, “How long?” But what happens when someone circumvents the flow of justice, routing it according to their own fashion to deliver themselves, is tragic. Next, consider even a conqueror’s desire to subdue the whole world. That man is walking in obedience to God’s original charter...sort of...but not.[12] But the reason he’s not has less to do with the longing and more to do with the mishandling of it. Every one of us longs to have dominion because we are created in the image of God who is Dominion. We all share to a degree this longing. It is not wrong. But what are we to do with that desire, especially if it offends propriety or if the path to it runs through the forbidden lands? We’d better do (or not do) something with it, but I’m afraid, we haven’t been doing (or not doing) it. We are never told by God to deny our desires, to repress our longings, or to cut out our hungers. Not once. We are, on the other hand, told to “mortify the deeds of the body”[13] and to “mortify therefore your members which are upon the earth”[14] and to yield those same members as “instruments of righteousness unto God.”[15] But to most, it seems, the idea of embracing the longing is too scary a proposition. How on earth could someone not mishandle it?

Perhaps in our fear of dying we never really live and thus die. Perhaps in our fear of disillusionment or catastrophe or temptation, we never really long and thus fail. “We are half-hearted creatures”, says C. S. Lewis, “fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered to us. Like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea, we are far too easily pleased.” Perhaps if someone could show us how to handle our longings, our longings would lift us up and out where we belong, rather than drag us down to the baser regions of human solution. Where should we look? Many who want to live reasonable lives find themselves drawn to writers like James who remind us that our longings can drag us away, entice us, tempt us, and finally kill us.[16] They take a hint from this warning that longing seems inexorably linked to death and must therefore be vehemently resisted; longings must be eliminated or at least avoided. But we have other guides like the warrior-poet David who remind us that our longings cry out within us for God to save us.[17] And then we have the wise maxims of sages and kings like, “A longing fulfilled is sweet to the soul, but fools detest turning from evil.”[18] At the core, Lewis suggests, the problem is not that we are too hard to satisfy, but too easy. We are too quick to turn to an evil shortcut.

“What do you want?” was the first important thing Jesus ever said, according to his best friend (John 1:38). Now, by his own admission, John’s account of the life of Christ is not so much a narrative as a distillation: John’s concern was with the essence of the God-Man to the point of excluding much, even things other gospel writers were diligent to include in their accounts[19], and his purpose for writing was to clear a path between Jesus and the ones who need Him.[20] So John begins his story by showing us the Jesus who cuts through all the hype, all our problems, all our baggage, all our facades, and all our complications with, “What do you want?” If we try to classify the people who were followers of Jesus, we might rush to create categories: there were the sinners, the saints, the chosen, the faithful, the desperate, and so on. But what could we say of all of them? They were the hungry. Think of all the people you read about in the gospels. The woman at the well: thirsty; the man at the pool of Bethesda: starving; the disciples: hungry; all those who wanted to be healed, filled, fed, delivered, saved, relieved, validated: hungry and thirsty. And Jesus never scolds them for being this way. In fact, he calls them blessed, “Blessed are you who hunger now, for you will be satisfied.”[21] The ones he scolds are the ones who are full: the satisfied[22] and the Pharisees.[23] Most people, including Christians, do one of two things with their longings: deny them or sate them—either suppress and forget how hungry you are or feed the hunger quickly so that it goes away...for a while. Sometimes it’s unconscious; the church in Laodicea talked about being full but did not realize that they were desperately hungry: “You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked.” [24] If our Lord himself said it is blessed to be hungry, why would we do just about anything to avoid it? This leads me back to my suspicion that it is not longing itself that we need a solution to, but the handling of it.

Lazarus was dead. And it troubles some to see Jesus so cavalier with the situation. But for our sakes it is fortunate, because we get a glimpse into the different ways two sisters handled their longings. [25] Martha isn’t hungry at all, only sad for the loss of her brother and disappointed that Jesus hadn’t come through for her. With dry eyes she says, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died. But I know that even now God will give you whatever you ask.” Jesus goes straight for her heart; He lifts the lid on some longing and wafts the aroma her way, “Your brother will rise again.” But Martha has already eaten, “I know he will rise again in the resurrection at the last day.” True. Very true. Absolutely true. And absolutely keeping Martha from being hungry. Jesus presses on to help us understand Martha by not leaving her answer at that, but making her refine it so that we know that her knowledge is complete, even though it has left her full.[26] But Mary, on the other hand, runs to Jesus, falls at His feet, and weeps out the words, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.” Notice that unlike Martha, Mary added no commentary; she gave herself no advice. Mary smelled the aroma, and it crushed her to think the food was so close yet so far away. This moved Jesus; it moved Jesus deeply; Jesus wept. Notice that her hunger was not for Jesus, who was in her midst, but for her brother. And Jesus not only welcomes her hunger, He is pulled into it and shares in it with her. Martha was unaffected by all this[27], but let us not be too hard on her; after all, she had already eaten. Or, was she in fact starving and had been so long without food that her hunger became numb? Jesus of course raised Lazarus from the dead, and afterwards enquiring minds went to visit whom? Mary.[28] And they put their faith in Jesus. Perhaps they too were hungry and had found someone to long with.

Actually, it’s pretty easy to see how we, like Martha, got here, why we would want to avoid our tricky longings. It’s pretty easy to see why we would want to explain them away or cover them up, grin and nod when youth first discover them as if we had a pretty good handle on the situation. It’s pretty easy to see by now that Jesus does not intend for us to be full and “have need of nothing.”[29] It’s pretty easy to see that we’ve been presented a false dichotomy when it comes to our having longings (to be or not to be a longer). What’s difficult is finding something still afloat now that our nice, long-free ship has been sunk. Specifically, what is a Christian to do with longing? Why would a Christian, who claims to have found Jesus, still be looking for something more? If Jesus is the desire of nations[30], if He is our sufficiency[31], and we have found Him, then why do we still long for any thing more? If we are created by Him and for Him and all fullness dwells in Him[32] then what else could our hearts desire? Why would honest Christians (and they would) join with U2 to sing, “I still haven’t found what I’m looking for?” This is far more troubling than the question many Christians ask, that of discovering the difference between “godly” desires and “sinful” desires. Why desire at all? Unless you would condemn and cast all desires into fallen nature (and I think it would be hard to do that with some of the noble longings listed above, including those of our Lord himself when He walked the earth), then you must entertain the idea that Christ himself is not all that there is to long for, that there is at least one thing beside Christ that exhilarates even the Christian. I said you must entertain the idea, but not embrace it. Still, we will pass awfully close to many idols on our way through this maze. In this very thought lies a vital thread leading the way out.



Knowing you, Jesus, knowing You
There is no greater thing
You’re my all, you’re the best
You’re my joy, my righteousness
And I love you Lord.[33]



Knowing God is the goal of the Christian life. To know God is eternal life.[34] It is the heart of Jesus’ “final” prayer for His disciples. It is the heart of the reason He came to earth to begin with. Knowledge is everything. But knowledge has been maligned, shifted, and how have we missed this? Knowledge of what? Knowledge about what? In the Garden of Eden, says John Eldredge, were two trees: Knowledge and Life. Our Mom and Dad picked the wrong tree, and we do the same thing to this day.[35] It is intimate knowledge of a person that counts, and it is all that counts. The Bible even uses the word know to describe the physical union of a husband and wife. The kind of knowledge we’re after is actually a spiritual intercourse.[36] Adam and Eve had the opportunity for this kind of knowledge with God, but they let it go. They chose against a person and for another kind of knowledge. Knowing Jesus is the life, and that is why He came. Period.[37] But what room does this leave for longing? I’ll attempt to answer that question with another. How do you get to know someone? Really, do you get to know someone by sitting at their feet and ogling them in endless, flattering infatuation? Isn’t that what many Christians think eternal life is like—the great eternal choir practice? Few could long for that (and perhaps that plays into the hand of living satiated lives of duty: “getting along without longing, thank you”). I think that is not the way, but let me suggest several that are. You get to know someone by learning of the things they have experienced, the things that shaped them, and made them who they are. You get to know someone by asking them what things are important to them, what they stand for, what they’d die for. You get to know someone by comparing scars. You get to know someone by going with him to the places he’s been. You get to know someone by meeting all his friends, hearing what they have to say about him, and figuring out what it is that he likes about them. You get to know someone by hearing the longings of his heart, hearing him talk about all the “places to go, people to meet, and things to do” that he yet intends. Wouldn’t it be true of knowing Jesus? It wasn’t a man who made up the metaphor of a Father and a Son and friends. It was God. He chose to call us friends. Follow the beautiful progression of friendship in the words of Jesus through these verses in John’s gospel:



Where I am going, you cannot come (John 13:33)

Where I am going, you cannot follow now, but you will follow later. (John 13:36)

I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going. (John 14:3-4)

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. This is my command: Love each other. (John 15:13-17)

Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am, and to see my glory, the glory you have given me because you loved me before the creation of the world. Righteous Father, though the world does not know you, I know you, and they know that you have sent me. I have made you known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them. (John 17:24-26, emphasis mine)



That we would know Him and be getting to know Him is apparently not a paradox or is one that God is comfortable sharing with us. To restate, to have eternal life and be getting eternal life is apparently not a paradox or is one that God is comfortable sharing with us.[38] The fact is that we are not killing time while in this body. We are getting to know him by learning of His walk, receiving His thoughts and counsel, adopting His heart, feeling His passions, discovering the ones He loves, fighting beside Him, venturing with Him, and joining Him in the mission He’s yet to accomplish. We are getting to know him by longing. We are hungry, we are thirsty, we are longing for more of Jesus. And this is not more in the sense that we didn’t get enough yet. It’s more in the sense of wanting variety, fullness, and balance. Just as there are different tastes for our palette, we long for different flavors of God. Just as our eyes can see a vast array of colors in unlimited arrangements, we long to see the array of divinity. And so I have found at least something still afloat in the sea of longings: God doesn’t take away from us the longings of our hearts when we choose Him—he quickens them, making them come fully alive. In fact, it is only when we are longing in Him that the objects of our longing find their true value. It is only when the True God is known that the would-be idols can assume their proper roles. Remember when Paul found that the Athenians had been worshipping at an altar that read, “TO AN UNKNOWN GOD”.[39] Paul didn’t tear down the altar; instead he proclaimed to them that what they worshipped as unknown, he was going to make known. To Paul at least, the longing for something that couldn’t be explained was a platform, a pointer, a clue, a clew to what people were still looking for.

Now I want to make finer points about clews. First note that in the example of Athens, Paul did not leave the people there to worship at the altar. In other words, he keyed in on an itch they had but did not encourage them to scratch it. In fact, he said in effect that God has been patient with scratching your itches in the past, but now that you know better, you are being called up to something higher (to repent).[40] But he also did not encourage them to ignore or remove it. As far as we know, that altar was an effective evangelism post for years to come that disciples could “show and tell” just like Paul did. If this argument from silence is not palatable, then at least grant that God Himself saw fit to leave the altar there for Paul to use as an example. And God has seen fit to leave us with many discomforts, hungers, and thirsts, whether in ourselves or readily observable in others. The writer of Hebrews confirmed to us that we are still longing for a day[41] and for a country[42]—that we are longing for our home.

Second, I would like to dismantle the idea that longing is the business of the future or of the past but not both—that getting to know God and receiving His life is the business of fixed past or of variable future, but not both. If I walk with someone down what is for them a familiar road, I’m likely to discover many old and unchanging things with a story my friend can tell. In that sense, I am not discovering anything new at all, only ancient knowledge that I am being brought into, such as a giant boulder, a deep stream, or even the path itself. But I’m also likely to discover brand new things that have never existed until this moment, such as a songbird who has just decided to build her nest in a nearby tree. That experience is new both to me and my old friend. Moreover, the experience itself may expose a repressed longing or awaken a new one. I long for all of these things: the ancient road, the timeless boulder, the bird’s new nest and her new song. But they are all sub-longings to and made full by the presence of my friend. Until I walk the path with my friend Jesus, all of these things awaken “an unknown god” in me. It is not until I am with Him that I feel His pleasure in making and making known to me all these things. Let us not argue whether the revelation of God is fixed or progressive. All paths are old and all experiences new, but Jesus is the Lord of the walk.

Third, why itch? I have often thought how silly an itch is. We go 999 thousandths of our lives without itching, but one moment it hits and we are compelled to scratch—it just comes along unsolicited (interestingly, it seems to happen more the more we think about it). But why stop there? Why hunger? Why thirst? Why be troubled by anything? Hunger ensures that we will continue to work.[43] Thirst ensures that we will continue to visit the well. Longing for what we don’t yet have ensures that we will continue the treasure hunt. A sudden longing, like an itch, is a clew for us, a thread wanting to lead us to some part of Christ we have not yet found. When we discover a new longing, it is an invitation for a new adventure in Christ. Our first notion should be that there is some aspect of Him we have not yet known, and that His Spirit is producing in us a new itch. For if we itch, if we thirst, it means that there is some way in which we do not yet know Him.[44] It simply must be. We know this from the encounter of Jesus with the woman at the well.[45] Jesus said to her, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” The thirst Jesus goes after and quenches is afterwards a fountain of living water, welling up into eternal life. [46] And here is our clew again only not in the form of yarn but of a river speaking the same invitation: follow me up and I’ll not only satisfy your thirst, but I’ll give you the source, the headwater, a wellspring. Once you’ve found that source, you can never thirst again in that way. And it is only in that one way, for Jesus surely didn’t intend to tell us, “Even though it’s blessed to thirst, if you believe in me you’ll never thirst; that blessed thirsty life I was talking about is for unbelievers.” No, it is surely good to be thirsty, and to follow the streams to their source in Christ one by one as we discover them. But now I must be careful not to take away one of the floats we’ve already laid hold of. Perhaps you’re beginning to worry about the opposite problem: running out of thirsts, running out of itches. Let us put the fear of somehow exhausting all of our longings to rest. After years of chasing God, Paul reminded us,



Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God!
How unsearchable his judgments,
and his paths beyond tracing out!
“Who has known the mind of the Lord?
Or who has been his counselor?”
“Who has ever given to God,
that God should repay him?”
For from him and through him and to him are all things.
To him be the glory forever! Amen.[47]



Finally, to my materialist friends who have made it this far, I pose a question: It’s easy to explain why we long for things that are to be had: we get hungry, and there is such a thing as food; we thirst, and there is such a thing as drink; we tire, and there is such a thing as sleep; we lust and there is such a thing as sex; we desire power, and though abstract it is real enough to be had by some. But what basis can we find for expecting this universal longing for a god? Why an itch without a corresponding scratch? How strange a universe in which the inhabitants spend their lives longing for something there is absolutely no way of ever having.[48] Phillip Yancey calls these discomforts “rumors of another world” and makes the compelling case that the reason we long for more than this life offers is that we are made for more. We are not completely compatible with this world. [49] There is more here than meets the eye or any of our senses.

In the final analysis, my young poet friend was right after all. How wonderful and terrible it is to live in our current state, with good things lost to the future, the past, the present, and even the timeless. The offer of Jesus Christ is to know God, which is eternal life. The good life is a quest for knowledge, not of information, but of a Person, which comes to us through longings—longings easily mishandled. How we handle our longings makes all the difference—it is life and death, being asleep or being awake to the life God has for us. We must be awake to our longings, neither denying them nor sating them, but embracing them and bringing them to the Light, asking Him to make known their true source and destiny. If we handle them any other way, they will take us out.



But all things having their true character exposed by the light are made manifest; for that which makes everything manifest is light. Wherefore he says,

Wake up, thou that sleepest,
and arise up from among the dead,
and the Christ shall shine upon thee.

See therefore how ye walk carefully, not as unwise but as wise, redeeming the time, because the days are evil.[50]



Our longings lead us up many paths towards the fullness of God. Perhaps all paths do lead eventually to God, but to be sure, no paths are meant to be walked without Jesus Christ, who has walked our roads before and longs to show us the way. After all, He said “I am the way.”[51] So are we out of the labyrinth now? No. At best, we have only found a clew or two. It is now for each of us to follow them, step by step, back to where we started but have never really been.



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[1] Surprised by Joy by C. S. Lewis © 1986, 1984 by Arthur Owen Barfield
[2] Journey of Desire © 2000, John Eldredge
[3] Because balls of thread were used to escape from labyrinths in various mythological stories (such as the story of Theseus in Crete), clew and clue came to be used of anything that could guide a person through a difficult place. This use led in turn to the meaning “a piece of evidence that leads one toward the solution of a problem.” Today, clue is the more common spelling variant for the “evidence” sense, but you'll find clew in some famous works of literature (Source: Merriam-Webster’s Word of the Day © 2003 by Merriam-Webster, Incorporated)
[4] The New Colossus by Emma Lazarus, inscribed on the Statue of Liberty
[5] Luke 22:15
[6] 1 Timothy 6:9-10
[7] 1 Samuel 8:1-22
[8] Genesis 11:4
[9] Mark 8:31-33
[10] Mark 10:35-41
[11] Revelation 6:9-11
[12] Genesis 1:28
[13] Romans 8:13
[14] Colossians 3:5
[15] Romans 6:13
[16] James 1:14-15
[17] Psalm 119:81-88
[18] Proverbs 13:19
[19] See John 20:30 and John 21:24-25
[20] See John 20:31
[21] Luke 6:21
[22] Luke 6:25
[23] Luke 11:42-52
[24] Revelation 3:17
[25] This whole story is in John 11
[26] John 11:27
[27] John 11:39
[28] John 11:45
[29] Revelation 3:17 again
[30] Haggai 2:7
[31] 2 Corinthians 3:5
[32] Colossians 1:16-19
[33] Knowing You (All I Once Held Dear), ©1993 Make Way Music, Words and Music by Graham Kendrick
[34] John 17:3
[35] John 5:39-40; Genesis 2:17; 3:22. John Eldredge, National House Church Conference, September 2004.
[36] Genesis 4:1
[37] John 1:4; 10:10
[38] John 17:3
[39] Acts 17:22
[40] Acts 17:30-31
[41] Hebrews 4:8-11
[42] Hebrews 11:14-16; 39-40
[43] 2 Thessalonians 3:10
[44] See John 6:35-37
[45] The full story is in John 4
[46] John 4:10, 14; 7:37
[47] Romans 11:33-36
[48] This line of thinking I also owe to C. S. Lewis, John Eldredge, and Phillip Yancy. I’m sure it did not originate with Lewis, but it was he who first opened my eyes to it.
[49] Rumors Of Another World: What On Earth Are We Missing?, Phillip Yancey
[50] Ephesians 5:13-16, Darby, J. N. 1890 Darby Bible
[51] John 14:6

All Scripture quotations unless otherwise noted are The New International Version © 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society. Used by permission of Zondervan Publishing House, Grand Rapids, MI.



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1 comment:

MJ said...

Wow. This is so rich, I think I have to read it three more times to get all of it. Maybe more. I am always suprised to find that longing can be twisted so. You can have a particular longing and it just presses you. When you look into it, evil tells you it is something that can be sated by some earthly pleasure..food, sex, whatever. "Some change must be made to your circumstances." Often the thing that really needs to change is you. But we have an enemy that longs for us to decieve ourselves. If you wait and say..""Ah, but that answer is too simple...what is it really?" You often find that the yarn leads to some place you are set to meet God in. I think we also get into trouble when we judge longings...I have often seen this lead to rebellion, moreso than acknowleging the longing and not admonishing yourself for having it. Then you can ask the question "Where is the spiritual need in this longing?" This is really an amazing post. I am glad I got a chance to look at some of your older posts. I find a great deal of inspiration in reading your work.

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